Reneé Rapp.Photo:Julia & Vincent
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Reneé Rapphas ditched the friends who “left” her at a Los Angeles hotel where she was drugged and assaulted.
“I still feel like I’m sorting through those feelings,” she told the outlet. “I do understand that it was an incredibly traumatic experience that I don’t remember at all. And it feels weird to talk about because I don’t remember it.”
Reneé Rapp.Julia & Vincent
Rapp explained that as she’s been dealing with those emotions, she’s questioned the friends she was hanging out with at the time and unfollowed them on social media.
“I just recently started to be like, ‘Wait, the people that let this happen to me suck.’ I recently was like, ‘I actually don’t want to follow this person on Instagram anymore because they left me at a club to get drugged.’ God knows what happened to me,” theSex Lives of College Girlsstar said.
Rapp noted that the assault happened two years ago in Los Angeles. “I woke up on a bathroom stall, face up in The Beverly Hilton with blood on my pants. And had been left alone at that point for like seven hours,” she recalled.
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Rapp further explained that the experience inspired her JanuarySaturday Night Liveperformance of “Snow Angel,” which shares a title with her debut album.
“I was like, ‘OK, well, when we doSNL, if I’m doing this [song], I am doing this.’ I will be on a red floor and I need to start laying down because that’s how I woke up. And there should be red underneath me and I should be in all white,” she told the publication.
Asked if she has spoken with her former friends about the assault, Rapp said she spoke to a guy she was seeing “the day after.”
“I remember he was like, ‘Are you OK? What happened? I guess you went home. Hope you’re OK.’ I’m like, ‘I didn’t go home. Don’t be dumb,’” she recalled telling him.
The “Tummy Hurts” artist also noted that she “always knew” she wasn’t hanging out with the right crowd, but she was navigating a tough breakup at the time.
“I also think, in hindsight, I was really struggling with my sexuality and I was like, ‘OK, well, this boy is kind of giving me validation, and this is a straight group of people,’” Rapp said.
She concluded: “I knew, but I didn’t know to the extent, and I made a lot of excuses for it, but all my friends knew. [They] were like, “What the f— is going on? You realize you’ve been out every single night and it’s a Tuesday. That’s wild.”
If you or someone you know has been sexually assaulted, please contact the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or go torainn.org.
source: people.com
