Renée Elise Goldsberry.Photo:Taylor Hill/FilmMagic

Girls5Eva’s Renée Elise Goldsberry Recalls Powerful Moment of Clarity She Had a Decade After Miscarriage

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Renée Elise Goldsberryis reflecting on a difficult time in her life.

While appearing onThe Jennifer Hudson Showwith herGirls5Evacastmates, the actress, 53, spoke with hostJennifer Hudsonabout how the two both starred inThe Color Purple, prompting Goldsberry to remember a tough experience she went through while performing.

“And I remember thinking when I was receiving a Tony and thanking God for the opportunity to have been in that show and to have been in this show and to have these children," Goldsberry continues, referencing her 2016 award for best featured actress in a musical forHamilton.

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“And I looked out and I saw the producers and all of you out in the audience inThe Color Purpleagain, and it just felt like God was telling me, ‘Don’t you ever forget what I can give you in spite of what you think you’ve lost,' " she says.

Goldsberry and husband Alexis Johnson welcomed their son Benjamin in 2009. In 2014, the couple welcomed daughter Brielle via adoption.

In 2020, the star talked with PEOPLEabout her journey to motherhood, sharing what being a mother means to her.

“My greatest wish for my children is that they fulfill their purpose,” said Goldsberry. “I know that all children, and in particular mine, are here for a reason.”

“My path to motherhood was challenging, to say the least, and I always feel like I’m living aSliding Doorsversion of my life,” she shared with PEOPLE, saying she believed her children “getting here means they’re supposed to be here” before adding with a laugh, “I feel like my job is not to screw them up!”

She also shared that if she could do anything, she’d clone herself so she’d have extra hands when dealing with her two kids.

“I wish, mainly, that I could have a job and work all the time and also not have to leave my kids,” she said. “If there was a way to clone myself, and be at every parent-teacher meeting and be there to put my kids to bed every single night, andalsostar on Broadway, that’s what I would do.”

While parenting can be a lot, Goldsberry said the little moments with her kids make everything worth it.

“My kids make me laugh every single day — especially when they’re their most precocious,” Goldsberry said, laughing. “My son said to me the other day, ‘Why are you so dramatic?’ And I just thought, ‘Really? You know that word? And also, you’ve already noticed how dramatic I am?’ That just really made me laugh.”

source: people.com